The gods of spiritual knowledge, the ones that come & give the blessing of spiritual power - I was waiting for them. I was trying to receive the consciousness of Gods - omniscience, & spiritual bodies which are capable of transcending the limitations of time & space. That's what I was trying to do. Now, I was performing the meditation practices, which involved visualizations. I sat there for hours & hours & hours, trying to receive the spiritual power that is promised. So when these entities who were supposed to bring me spiritual enlightenment finally showed up, they actually ended up being demons instead of gods. They ended up being these dark, terrible, creepy monsters. They looked & they felt evil, & they were trying to enter me. So I just sat there in this creepy terrible battle for hours. I just sat there battling these terrible creepy things. They were trying to enter me, & the only weapon that I had against them was that there was this speck of goodness in my heart, & that was more powerful than all the evil in them. So I sat there for hours, &I was just like, "Here I am. You're trying to enter me, but I'm not going to loosen my grip of my heart. That's where I was keeping my meditative concentration focused, was on my heart, & on the goodness in my heart, because as long as I concentrated on that, those demonic powers were not able to enter me. At that time, I didn't have any relationship with God. I didn't know that I was a child of God. I had no idea at that time. But yet that seed of God inside of me, that seed of goodness inside of me, was more power than all the evil in those demonic forces. There was no longer any possibility of me living a normal life. You'll receive spiritual bodies which are capable of transcending the limitations of time & space, that's what I was trying to do. What about the time when I left time? Once my earthly consciousness started to dissolve, then I would pass through the demonic kingdom. My mentally constructed world of hallucinated spiritual enlightenment. When I found God, I was like, "I knew it all along, that you were real." I'm gonna go into Godland...ok...lemme go...ok, bye.